When it hits, it hits hard

When I was talking to my sister yesterday about A, and how frustrated and heartbroken I was over the situation, she told me “You’re losing one of your core group. I don’t know how you weird introverts deal with that.” I understand, she was trying to be funny and supportive; but there was a flash […]

Keep on pushing on…

**trigger warning** Hello, Dear Friends and Beloved Blog Family – We’ve survived the Holiday nonsense, and I’m declaring this my Year of No Malarky. I’m done with it – over it, moving on. I wouldn’t call it a resolution, but it’s more of a self care kind of thing. This means more calling people on their […]

Revisiting the Case

There are days, like today, where on thing leads to another in a truly bizarre set of circumstances. I found an old driver’s license which means I can claim something like $7.50 from the state of KS. Wheee…. But it got me thinking about finding proof of an address (I’m still hoping to find the […]

Me, too…

*I don’t know where this is going yet, but pedophilia, sexual assault, harassment and consent are covered here. If this makes you uncomfortable, please don’t push yourself further.* The first assault I recall was in a TG&Y. I had gone on a trip with a friend and her mother, and wanted so badly, to get […]

Chaotic Neutral

I apologize up front – this may be slightly disjointed in organization. Like every other person I know, there’s been a lot on my plate (not just metaphorically speaking) and some of it has been — well— more clear cut than other bits. So, if you feel like running in the worm hole that […]

As the wind blows

Things are becoming more fraught with Mum. It seems that every conversation I have with her details the societal wrongs done to her; verbal click bait; snarky comments, and the never ending list of ailments, allergies and abandonment. If I mention an alcohol, she must remind me of her response to gin or daiquiri mix. […]

Not all lights are safe

The above statements may seem, at first glance, to be either innocuous or patronizing. Imagine hearing them multiple time a day, over and over, in reference to things you know to be true, to be real. Imagine this going on until you’re not sure you trust your senses, or your memory, or even you own […]

The Cope Crutch

I took today off. It wasn’t in the plans, but after a long four day weekend of binge watching (and therefore discussing every conceivable nuance of this actor or writer’s with the hubby**), updates from my brother, negotiations with siblings… I wasn’t up to the tomfoolery of public transit. I tried. I was at the […]

I’m an Addict

I’ve been arguing more with my mother – which is a damned exercise in futility and time, because she will always be the victim, the blameless one. “I thought you’d be proud of me for this creative solution. Who knows what will happen in ten months?” Ahh, so it’s okay that you have zero fucking […]

Punctures, tears and holes

I’m struggling with some boundaries right now. It’s going to happen, that’s a natural process. What has me running in circles is the manifestation of this particular event. One of my biggest challenges as a product of narcissism is not repeating the pattern I was brought up with – namely that of being a “victim”. […]